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November 29, 2011

One Year.....

Photo by Paul Van Vleck
Our original plan was to elope, but because of my Mom's health, we decided to switch our arrangements so she could witness our marriage. So, on the night before Thanksgiving, we gathered in our living room and were married in a beautiful ceremony performed by my brother. Mom looked stunning, and no outsider would have guessed that she was in such severe pain and would end up going to the hospital that very same evening. The cancer had spread to her bones and her back was literally breaking into pieces. Here I was marrying the man I loved, and at the same time realizing my mom's condition was getting worse. The range of emotions were just about unbearable.

Mom insisted we go ahead with our plans to elope. She would have it no other way, and I think she was pretending to feel better so it would be easier for me to leave. She was back out of the hospital and my sister stayed with her so we could go on our trip. Knowing that she was in the best of hands, we left for Mexico.

On the Novemeber 29th, we were married on the beach in Yelapa. It was the perfect hand-made wedding, and people we had just met gathered together to pull the whole thing off. I can't describe how incredible that day was expect to say ~ it was aboslutely perfect and the best day of our lives. I cherish every second of that day.

I feel like she somehow held out until we returned, because on the day we got back she was rushed to the hospital. It was the beginning of the end. She would never go home again.
In just a week the cancer had aggressively attacked her body and taken over. I don't know what is sadder than heartbreaking, but it was that, and our hearts were shattered to smithereens.

I couldn't leave her side. She wasn't ready. I wasn't ready.
I could never be ready to lose my Mom. (I'm still fighting it.)

During those days, my husband was my rock, my refuge, my support and my everything.

And he was there, holding my hand and my Mom's hand that Christmas Eve night when she passed away...

I do not know how I would have gotten through that time or this past year without the strength of his love. I really don't.

But I do know I have come this far because of him.
And I do know Barron has the most wonderful, beautiful and loving heart.
I know he is the one person in the entire world who makes me continuously happy and at peace.
I know we were meant to be together and I know that he is the matching piece to my soul.

Today we celebrate our one year anniversary, with all the memories, heartache and happiness. We celebrate the time we had Mom in our lives and how much she impacted us as a couple. We celebrate that love does always win, and how fortunate we are to have one another to continue on this life with.

Happy Anniversary Barron...

I love you forever.

Posted by jen at 12:28 PM   |   link   |   

November 21, 2011

Happy Birthday Cedar :)

Photo by his Momma

Dear Cedar,
You are a big reminder of hope,
of dreams, of pure magic and
of love come true...

Happy Birthday dear one....

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November 07, 2011

My kind of beauty....

Murmuration from Sophie Windsor Clive on Vimeo.

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