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August 30, 2009

recess.. ...

kite, manzanita....

one thing is for certain,
i will always make time for play in my life.


above everything else, it is the one thing that frees me
from my mind. it is the one solution for me when i just
need to switch the energy around, or when i feel sucked
dry, or when i feel stuck....

my best play is almost always when i am outside....

and ive been doing alot of that kind of play lately....

for me, its better than any therapy, any sermon, any pill, any meditation...

its good to know what works.
its good to know what your play is.

and its essential we make time for it...

Posted by jen at 12:13 PM   |   link   |   

August 21, 2009

Alive. . .

to be free in....

When your eyes are tired the world is tired also.
When your vision has gone no part of the world can find you.
Time to go into the dark where the night has eyes to recognize its own.
There you can be sure you are not beyond love.
The dark will be your womb tonight. 
The night will give you a horizon further than you can see.
You must learn one thing. The world was meant to be free in.
Give up all the other worlds except the one to which you belong.
Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet confinement of your aloneness to learn anything or anyone that does not bring you alive is too small for you...
~David Whyte
*thank you for this dear myriam**

Posted by jen at 11:29 AM   |   link   |   

August 13, 2009

what it is....

barga, italy

its about knowing when it is time to lay something to rest.

its about understanding what no longer serves you, (or perhaps, what never even did) and finding a new way instead.

its in ignoring the lure to remain a victim and taking a look at what you can do instead of remaining stuck in fear and blame.

its in surrounding yourself with people and activities that bring you to your best,
and keep you from collapsing within and fading away.

its about having enough integrity to care for yourself in the best way possible and ditching that ridiculous "sacrificing self for others" mindset. what good are you to anyone if you have just drained your life force?

its about remembering the times you were the most happy, the most content, the most at peace, and finding the right recipe for your soul. it allowing yourself time and permission to enjoy those things that spark your heart.

its in being open to experiences you never dreamed of, and allowing yourself the freedom to have an adventure no matter how small it may seem.

its in giving yourself a flipping break for once, and putting a muzzle on the voices in your head that try to make you believe that you suck, or are not capable, or that you always fail, or arent worth it.... (to hell with those lies.)

its about asking for help.
its about learning to receive.
its about healing your life.

its possible. it really is.

Posted by jen at 06:37 PM   |   link   |   

August 11, 2009


bench, st. albans bay

"Here's what Mr. Chuang Tzu has to say about home towns~
If your life is true
You don't have to go far
To find heaven and earth
On the rim of your doorway
To have ocean and sky
Everywhere that you are..."
*M.Smith, There

Oh how I love that.

Posted by jen at 03:42 PM   |   link   |   

August 08, 2009

treasures. . .

discovering, canon xti

sometimes the most valuable, inspiring, and necessary experiences

come from people and places you may never have imagined.

i want to remain open and curious, and not in resistance to new opportunities just because its "not me".

there are life treasures everywhere,


just waiting for you to come along and discover them...

Posted by jen at 02:36 PM   |   link   |   

August 03, 2009


tiny beauties, backyard

im off to spend the week with 27 girls from our senior team, (all who are a few decades younger than i) to attend dance camp in wisconsin... hopefully ill be coming home with some fat hip hop moves myself.

there have been two significant things in the past couple months which has made a gigantic shift in how i have been feeling ~ getting back to working with children, and finding a place to live which allows me all the outdoor work i could ever imagine.

the girls keep my heart incredibly tender, young, and alive,
and being out in nature feeds my quiet, curious, hermit side.

and the combo of both keeps me happy.

i treasure happy.

i really do..

wishing you a week which allows you time to fill your own happy bucket...

jen gray

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