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December 19, 2008

i try, but winter still blows.

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December 18, 2008

sweet.. ..

two little feet, st. albans bay

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December 15, 2008


barn pretties.

When we no longer know what to do we have
come to our real work and when we no longer know
which way to go we have begun our real journey.
The mind that is not baffled is not employed.
The impeded stream is the one that sings ...
- Wendell Berry

***happy birthday Gail***

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December 08, 2008

for my dear old friend. . . . . .

when you must walk through, ...

this is from an entry from 2005, but i am re-posting today
in honor of an old friend who is now walking down that
very same road......

what i know for sure is that most of the time i know jack shit.
and that the things i thought were for sure, often change,
and that beliefs and fears and goals and
passions can switch on you as well.

what i know for sure is that this can be damn scary.
and to let go of what you know so well,
and abandon the comfort of familiarity takes deep strength.

and to starve your heart is to die a slow death.

what i know for sure is that if you ask for help, things will be
easier. and to pretend you are a superhero is exhausting.
relief will come in being honest, even if its the hard stuff.
and your true sisters, your true family, will help you up.... if you let them.

what i know for sure is that you can only think and talk
about things for so long and then the day comes when
you finally have to make a move. it doesnt have to be drastic,
but you do need to take that small step towards getting to
a better place.

what i know for sure if that this is your one life,
and you cannot get caught in midstream, mindlessly agreeing
to what is handed to you.
it is up to you now.
it is up to you to take hold of the wheel, and
to make this life of yours loaded to the rim
with soulfulness
and experiences that really fill you,
and to have people surrounding you
who truly care for your

and i know it takes alot of courage.
and i know it can feel terrifying.

but you are worth it.
your life was not meant to be lived this way.
now is your chance.

we are here
we are rooting for you
and we will not only see you through but be
here on the other side to celebrate with you....

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December 04, 2008

all i know...

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