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May 29, 2008

two little feet.

hat dance, canon 20 d

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May 27, 2008

i was just thinking...

firecracker, canon 20 d

perhaps it's time you start having yourself a little fun....

****huge congrats to Deb and Steve from The Weepies. A song off their new cd made the soundtrack of Sex and the City!!!***

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May 21, 2008

which way....

direction, costa rica canon 20 d

state of mind
state of soul
state of heart

mind is logical, but prone to fear.
soul is magical, but hard to hear. (oooh..that rhymes)
heart is love intended, but often blinded by emotion.

and then there are the other states.

the state of rebellion.
the state of the good girl.
the state of the wild one.
the state of expectations.

so when i need to make a decision, im often consulting with this jury of multiple dimensions and i can honestly say, it is a rare occasion when they all agree across the board.

you wonder why i am so spontaneous?

its because if i was left to wait
until every single part of me was in accordance
with every other single part of me,
id never end up making a single move.

sometimes you've just got to wing it and
make it up along the way.

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May 20, 2008


us and them, costa rica ~ canon 20d

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May 18, 2008


another leaf on the trail, canon 20 d

i am no better
no more special
no more talented
no more lucky
than anyone else.

i struggle
i cry
i get pissed off.

i worry
i obsess
i get scared
and i get down.

i have a healthy supply of emotional baggage
and a bathroom scale i give the finger to on a daily basis.

i have made 100,000 poor choices to which i
have 100,000 excuses for,
and i have a masters degree in the art of getting into trouble.

and just because i sometimes dress the part of an artsy cool chick
is no indication that i actually am.
in fact,
i am clumsy,
and really the furthest thing from cool.

but i know what makes me feel alive
and what makes my spirit feel free.

i do want to change the yucks inside of me
and i deeply want to assist in healing and loving in
whatever tiny or gigantic way i can.

i have fallen down more times than i have leaped gracefully
and i dance in between heaven and hell so frequently that im sure i have left both the angels and the demons a tad confused.

but when i love, its really big
and when i laugh, its really loud
and i know how to have fun even in the midst of the worst storm.

but really,
im no different than the rest of us walking on this planet,
just trying to the best they can,
with what they've got.

i really do try.

and i know you really try too.

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May 15, 2008

3:30 am

in the bottle, costa rica, canon 20 d

i needed to leave by 3:30 am to get to the shoot on time.
i love hitting the road when no one else is awake ~ and chicago can seem
so unlike a major city at that time, more like a sleepy little town.

i made it home by 3:30pm and instantly fell asleep. . .

i love this kind of hard work. i love packing up the truck load of gear and working behind the scenes and learning something each and every time.
i love getting to meet people i would never have a chance to, and getting to
go to parts of buildings and museums that the general public doesnt have access to. (fulfills my trespassing needs) i love tweaking the light so it falls just slightly on the ear of the subject.

its labor intensive and its deeply creative and its exactly what i love to do.

and to see that photograph in a magazine at the end of all the hard work is
an extra cherry on the top of my sundae.

these days, especially with the difficult situation with the economy, i am truly grateful to have an opportunity to work and even more grateful that i get to love the work that i do.

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May 13, 2008

familia. . . . .

lizzy and belle, canon 20 d

that's my little niece in there.
and that's my older (who has always looked younger!) sister sportin' that big ball of loving in her mid-section.

maybe its because we are older now, maybe its because the last time we had a little baby in our family was nearly 20 years ago, maybe its because we just never expected such a miracle to have happened to her, to us...

but we are fascinated. and ridiculously giddy. and in complete wonder.

and my feeling for the importance of family is stronger now than it ever has been. it's as if this baby is pulling us together with a magical gravitational pull.

after having such a good time over the past few days,
we began to talk about how we would really like to move closer to one another ~ and how the miles between colorado, illinois, vermont, and florida is just too much. it would make me so happy to have my family all in one place...

being together somehow makes me feel like everything will always be okay. . .

and i have a feeling that little Belle has a lot to do with it all.

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May 10, 2008

Happy Mother's Day. . . .

siblings, naples ~ canon 20 d

we love you mom.
thank you for making our lives so much more easier.
and for teaching us how to laugh from our belly's.
and for letting us know that no matter what happens in our lives,
you will be there for us.

its been so fun being all together again....

lizzy, chris, and jen

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May 06, 2008

same kind of different.

pink feather, hermosa beach, costa rica ~ canon 20 d

“Whether we is rich or poor or something in between, this earth ain’t no final restin place. So in a way, we is all homeless-just workin our way toward home.”
~Denver Moore

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