jen gray

April 26, 2007

no...

a good place to land, canon 20 d

just a reminder for all you pleasers,

it's okay to say no.

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April 24, 2007

geez....

cabo letter, canon 20 d

oh
my
goodness!

what a day.

my insides feel like this painting.

i cannot wait to fall asleep with the cats tonight
and let the silence of my home tuck me in.

i remember when i hated the silence...
now it is such a welcomed treat.

while my job is highly stressful,
at least i get to come home to peace.

ive had some really lonely times over the past couple years
but these days i relish in the solitude. and i really
really love my bed.

time to rest.
rest is good.

wishing you the same.

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April 23, 2007

yesterday...

rally, canon 20d

because if you have to sit and think
about the last time you had fun ,
its just been way too long.

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April 21, 2007

today's list.....

hang time, canon 20d

overalls, short tee, baseball cap
breakfast at the diner with my favorite Ms. Jeanie
a ride to the country taking the back roads all the way
leaving the windows at home open for the kitties so they can listen to the birds
determined to find at least one abandoned barn i havent discovered yet
a picnic with a very cute boy
a stop by the river to see the big old carp
a chat at the bar with bartender joe
a peek in the windows of the house i will be moving into this summer

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April 18, 2007

because.......

lizzy's favorite, canon 20 d

because sometimes you just have to snap
out of it and take the bull by the horns .

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libra horoscope....

Free Will Astrology/ Libra:
You could grow moonflowers in a toxic waste dump, Libra. You could lift the spirits of a child who has been raised in grievous poverty. That's how much regenerative power you possess right now. You might even be able to locate underground water in a desert, or resurrect a dead dream, or alleviate half of your deepest suffering. I'm not absolutely sure you could transform lead into gold, but I do know that now is one of your best chances ever to pull it off.

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mess in my head

wall art, cabo ~ canon 20 d

i woke up with extreme anxiety this morning.
voices of upcoming changes and unknown outcomes.
tummy turning. head racing. hard to swallow.

at this very moment i have the abilty to make a conscious choice.

who i am going to listen to today?

the voice of fear or the voice of assurance and hope?

its really quite simple.
its all about who and what i am going
to allow to rent the space inside my head.
is going to be the jerks
or is it going to be my loves?
is it going to be the stress of bills or the gratefulness of a paycheck?
is it going to be the "this is going to suck" or the "im going to make the very best of things."

i know this sounds so baseline. cheesy postive thinking stuff. but really, i allow so much crap to fill my mind that it effects everything in my life.

im going to try really hard to keep it clean up there today.
im going to make an effort to decide who has the grip on the microphone connected to my speakers.

maybe we can all just toss out one of the ugly gremlins
who is loitering inside of us, and replace it with a prayer or
a simple hopeful thought or kind words from a friend.

we cannot control so fricken much but we can control who and what is going to be the center of our attention. right?

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April 17, 2007

the best....

like an artichoke, canon 20 d

the best scent of the day ...fresh cut grass.
the best sound of the day....a student of mine in a massive laugh attack.
the best news of the day... getting the house i wanted.
the best message of the day... a hilarious rant about traffic from my buddy, Faith.
the best meal of the day.. sushi with pals Roberto and Barron.
the best shoes of the day...my new ones
the best song of the day... Van Morrison's live version ~ into the mystic.
the best swear of the day... a student saying they were "fan-fucking tired of her
dumb-ass rules and jesus damn just shut the fuck up because hell ya im tweeking and am about to fan-fucking snap"
the best time of day... 2:30pm. quitting time at school.
the best email delights of the day...
BoHo girl and
Stef

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April 15, 2007

details of the weave

cabo weave, canon20d

i love that it was an easy day with the students
i love that i had a nice talk with my ex husband
i love that it will be in the seventies this weekend
i love my friend and her two kids and her angel baby
i love that i might be moving (again) two a big old house
i love that my brother is returning from alaska
i love that i have someone to go to dinner with on lonely nights
i love that i will see my superhero friend this summer and the posse to boot
i love the boy at the grocery store who always says "see ya later alligator in awhile crocidile good afternoon baboon" every time i see him
i love cat naps... with the cats
i love jonatha brooke's new cd
i love not feeling depressed
i love forgiveness and moving on.

that's what is in my love bucket today.

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April 13, 2007

have at it.....

swoop, there it is ~ cabo, canon 20d

hesitant to ask for what i want
not wanting to step on anyone's toes
putting yours, and his, and her needs before mine..

somehow this "makes me a selfless person"
and boosts my ratings as a good, accomodating girl.

bullshit.

it just makes me a good girl who is pissed
off because she is so damn accomodating.

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April 11, 2007

verbage. . .

lifted, canon 20 d

he stood up for me.

reminded me i was good.

it kept me from quitting.

kind words.

a gentle heart.

working wonders.

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April 10, 2007

words of the day....

penny and driftwood, canon 20 d

Benign."Of no danger to health; not recurrent or progressive; not malignant."

Lipoma."A lipoma is a slow-growing, fatty tumor situated between the skin and the muscle layer."

today i love the words fatty and benign.
today i am relieved.

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April 07, 2007

reeling in...

cabo , canon20d

we went fishing and for a good while i wasnt thinking about
anything but the tug of that line.

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April 06, 2007

sun hungry

yellow road sign, canon 20d

chin up little one.
spring will make her way to you soon.

let it go.
what's done is done.
quit letting the past rob your days.
forgive and move on.

and then tell me how to do the same.

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