jen gray

March 31, 2007

destinations.....

santos boys, canon 20 d

time to go home.
feeling the funk of not wanting to return.

i dont know where i belong
but i belong here more than there.

i have a history of escape.
i have a history of getting caught in the lure of the open road.
i have a history of leaving.

sometimes i feel i have had to shut down an entire
part of me just to be normal. i do not know
how to settle down anymore. i fake it alot.

coming here re-awakened my gypsy heart.

and now i am dreaming of another place.

here we go again...

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March 28, 2007

colors. . .

cabo streets, canon 20 d

its just so lovely here...

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March 25, 2007

when losing something is good....

something other than snow, canon 20 d

i went to mexico.
my luggage chose dallas.
so now i have the perfect excuse to buy
sweet little flowered
hand made skirts.

and all is well.

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March 20, 2007

spring break.

yellow pops, laguna ~canon 20d

off on an adventure ...
be back soon.

happy spring to you....

j

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March 19, 2007

he said........

skirt in laguna, canon 20 d

he said:
"you were the one who said
you really loved the smell of
night jasmine and that you
hated the hardened edges of red jello in
a bowl."

and i was amazed because this conversation
was so brief and so long ago.

he remembered...

and that is when i knew we would
be the best of friends..

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March 15, 2007

trippin'.....

boing, canon 20d

the best thing about having a bad dream
is waking up and discovering none of it was true
and that the day ahead is going to be as normal
as it always is.

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March 14, 2007

song.......

pretty little thing, canon 20 d

i slept with the windows open last night.
chicago made it into the seventies and it was
such a welcomed relief from the long spell
winter had cast upon us.

and for the first time this year,
i heard them....
the birds were singing even before
the sun rose. and i loved that they were
confident to chirp even though it was still
dark, almost declaring that this day would
be good, that the daylight would certainly
arrive, demanding hope...

it got me thinking about my mindset in the morning.
and how often it is:
"god i am so fucking tired, and i wonder what is going to go down
at work today and i hate my outfit and when is spring break?..etc.."

i am hardly a singing bird with hopeful expectations.

and maybe my days would be different if i started it with
a bit more of a cheery tune.

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March 13, 2007

what i was thinking about...

sea-ing things, canon 20 d

you think,
yes ~ that is what i want.
and you focus
everything
upon that one thing,
that one person,
that one place.

and one day you finally get it.
or him.
or her.
or there.
or that.

and then the hunger starts.
and at first you are sure its just a passing discontent.
but its not.

and you realize you spent everything on something
or someone or someplace that no longer fills you.

and you wonder if you can ever trust your instincts
or if that is just the way life is...
it changes and so do you.

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March 04, 2007

i have to smile myself...

angel girl, canon 20d

whenever i see their sweet little faces,
everything just seems to feel better.

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