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February 28, 2007

try again.....

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barga beauty, canon 20 d

"its never too late to start the day over..."
~m.franti

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boy things....

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like tires, canon 20d

i had a flat tire and i didnt know what to do.
it was late and shops were closed and so i
did what i do best.
i cried.
(i felt like such a dumb girl.)

and then i remembered an old friend who lived
nearby. and he came and gave me a big hug
and rescued me and made everything okay.
thank you Mr. L...

its not that a flat is a big deal.

it just reminded me that i no longer have
that one person
to call.

i guess its time i start reading that part in the manual
that tells me how to put on a spare tire.

Posted by jen at 06:27 AM   |   link   |   Comments (0)


February 24, 2007

word.....

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red, canon 20d

remember when you were young and your little brother would
mimic everything that came out of your mouth?
you would say:
"cut it out!"
and he would say:
"cut it out!"
and you would say:
"no really"
and he would say:
"no really"
etc etc etc....

i dare you to do that to someone today.

Posted by jen at 10:57 AM   |   link   |   Comments (0)


February 22, 2007

come along.....

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shit kickers, canon 20 d

“May your trails be crooked, winding, lonesome, dangerous, leading to the most amazing view. May your mountains rise into and above the clouds.”
~Edward Abbey

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February 21, 2007

human........

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chilly lake michigan, canon 20d

oh how i need to let go of what i am feeling today..

because i will either say something unkind
or cry because i wont say anything
or ill feel guilty because i have to love everybody
or ill feel angry for giving you my power.

maybe instead ill just blow the whole thing off
and not give a shit.
after all, it seems to work for you

Posted by jen at 10:36 AM   |   link   |   Comments (0)


February 18, 2007

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marbles found, canon 20 d


ive had so much to say but just havent been able to put
it in any kind of format. like those folks who have been abducted by
aliens and they wake up in a jelly sac yoke ~ thats how it has seemed.
not the alien part, just the inabilty to break through.

i have gone through a major transformation the past couple months
and maybe thats what happens. newly born, not able to form
the words of my heart.

here is the best i can do.
i finally feel my sadness has lifted.
after two years i no longer feel the dread.

i think i realized it when i found myself returning to
the things that used to light my fire.
exploring little places, connecting with strangers,
playing with my camera, drawing, and finally and most
importantly~ feeling passion and magic for my life,
for the simple, the strange, the wild.
forgiving and forgetting the things that just dont matter
anymore.
planning trips to the ocean and back to italy.
not minding sleeping alone.
actually feeling good that i am now divorced.

things like that.

all those marbles i thought i lost...
now found. and placed back nicely
in my messy
little head.


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February 14, 2007

forget........

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dog kitty, canon 20 d

“I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”
Maya Angelou

now aint that the truth.

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February 13, 2007

tagged......

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It’s a snow day today.
And I should be out shoveling but instead im snuggling down in bed with my cats…
Bohemian Girl
tagged me awhile back
and im just now getting around to it.
Okay, she wants: 6 weird things about myself.

(How easy is that? im the weirdest thing I know.)

1. ribs, (the kind you eat) really freak me out.
I cant stand the smell of them, the look of them, or to watch anyone eat them.

2. I move worms off the driveway so they don’t get smushed.

3. I have a major crush on Christopher Walken.

4. I tend to avoid stores that have bad lighting.

5. I sleep with 5 pillows,3 blankets, and a large polar bear. It makes the bed seem not so empty.

6. i love to trespass in places that say no trespassing.

Posted by jen at 10:38 AM   |   link   |   Comments (0)


February 12, 2007

dazzle.....

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little loves, canon 20 d

Listen...
Whatever it is you try to do with your life,
Nothing will ever dazzle you like the dreams of your body….mary oliver

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February 06, 2007

a bad jesus...

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mary above the stove, canon 20d

hey mary.
you know i try...
i try to be loving and compassionate
and supportive and understanding.

but im really not built for the "turn
the other cheek" thing. and its even worse when
someone goes after the ones i hold dear to my
heart.

(i would be a horrible jesus.)
(i would be a horrible mary.)

i wish there were more stories about how you and the family
handled really frustrating, mean people. because i know you
were surrounded by them... like what you did when you tried with
ever fiber of your being to be loving and someone looked at you and said,
"Shut Up B****" (or whatever was disrespectful back in your day).

im just curious what you did when doing your best wasnt cutting it.

Posted by jen at 08:10 PM   |   link   |   Comments (0)