There are no perfect words for when someone dies.

And there is no easy way through death.

We grasp for some kind of comfort, and perhaps we find some to hang onto,
but grief has a way of hitting like a tidal wave.
You may or may not see it coming, but when it hits,
suddenly your entire world seems upside down,
and its hard to find a steady place to stand.
It may be hard to breathe and all direction seems lost.

Its hard to go about the daily routine, or engage in chatter... and what was utterly important last month suddenly seems so very small and unimportant.

I come away from all these recent happenings with no deeper sense of faith or
understanding as to why things like this happen... Maybe answers will come, but they may not, and I have to accept that.

I just know that the words about
treasuring each day and loving each day as if it were your last, keep pounding in my head.

I still believe in prayer.
I still believe something good and kind comes from it.

So today, my prayers are for all of you
who are now faced with a very different kind of path...

and my hope is that you continue to reach out,
and ask for what you need,
that you are able to say what you need to say,
and that you go easy on yourself.
i pray that you will let others
care for you now, the way you have done for so many
and for you to remember you can take your time...
i pray you will get additional help and counseling if
the weight is just too heavy, and understand that there is no right or
wrong way to grieve and that everyone grieves differently (thank you for that one sue).

mostly i pray that an extreme dose of peace and love and assurance be injected into your heart and give you the comfort you need to carry on.

peace..
jen gray