Perhaps the gift in this process of such sudden and quick motion, is that my
emotional body hasn't had the time to brew and spin and take over...

You know the nurse that magically takes the frightened child who has come in for a shot, and she moves so quickly and non emotionally, and does this distraction thing just by her certainty, that the child has had the shot and is sucking on the lollipop before she knows she even was pricked and all is well?

That is how I have had to manage things lately. uh, with myself...

I am having to be really practical, really together, really grounded, and really strong in a number of areas right now,. Typically, my emotional body would take over and I would be stuck, afraid, sad, powerless, filled with anxiety etc.

Quite honestly, Im just not interested in that way of coping or functioning in this second half of my life.

For years I took the titles and the labels that were handed to me as if it were my own truth. The ones that told me I was sick, I was crazy, I was stupid, I was flighty, I was weak, I was not good enough, I was an emotional basket case....

Well,
that shit isnt flying anymore. In fact, it best be said not to even use those terms and my name in the same sentence in my presence.

Now I could get corny on you all and start singing some Helen Reddy's ~ I am Woman, but Ill save that for a later time..

Instead, I will simply say,

I have taken the reigns now...

giddy up and stand clear.