some even think it is a sign of weakness.
they think you can just shake it off or go for a run and it will be all better.
god forbid you go on meds.
then you get to become a freak show on top of feeling like shit. depression is
so drenched in shame that it adds to its power over you.

anyhow, now that things are better in my life i must admit i feel this pressure to remain "happy." even if i am having a normal down day, it scares me, and i try to hide it from myself and others. once you have been there, you just dont ever want to return.

when i read my dear friend's entry about her journey through this experience, i felt such a relief through her honesty. i love her for being so brave about a very real subject that has alot of baggage attached to it.

thank you mccabe...

in the mean time,
a few things that have brought a smile to my face this week ....

*the arrival of these new custom warmers from treehouse28

*thinking about running my fingers through
his hair

*sending messages to friends via
dylan

*watching my most favorite Drag Queen from the Key West days,
RV Beaumont,
do a little yodeling.