so if that is true, i am having to look
for a lesson in someone that i truly
want nothing to do with.

could the lesson be about learning to love
unconditionally, and without judgment?
or could it be, finding a common thread in the
midst of feeling like we are worlds apart?

could the teaching involve learning to set boundaires
or learning to not let a negative person infiltrate
my thinking?

am i supposed to learn to draw the line or
loosen my grip?

am i seeing my own shadows reflected back to me?
or i am being asked to see my beauty in the midst
of such chaos?

i guess i just dont know.

what i do know is that when i am feeling the drain
of a conflict that seems never ending, and i have tried
everything under the sun to try and make things better ~
all i really want to do is grab my camera, my tunes,
and hit the open road.

and maybe that is what i am supposed to get.
to learn again and again to return to
what really brings joy to my days.
because the truth is, life is full of
thorns ~ and if i do not learn to preserve who i am,
and what i love in the midst of it, ill just end up
being a bloody mess....