jen gray

mornings with ben

mr. ben, canon 20 d (taken by andrea)

my favorite time i think was when he would first wake
up. sleepy eyed and smiley and snuggly. happy.
perhaps the most comforting thing in the whole
wide world was sitting with him in my lap
listening to him practice his new language,
"ma ma ma ma ma..."

and damn, when that boy smiled, it didnt matter
what ugly you carried inside ~ it just vanished ~
nothing seems to matter in that moment.

ive had a bit of a rough week.
and i was encouraged to do everything
that i know which gives me peace ~
nature, music, photography, reading rumi,
praying, ...

but what i would have loved the most was to have
a morning with ben.

this little being, doesnt even know
how powerful he is just being on the planet .

a few pounds of straight up love and beauty.

just like his momma.