the bully had pushed and pushed and used her position
to control and demean others. including me.
and today she pushed me over the limit.

and i blew.

sometimes you cant talk back to the bully. in doing so you might just end up in a worse situation. and usually i know when to keep my mouth shut.

today was not the day.

i looked her straight in the eye and i FINALLY
let her have it .

she was shocked. and then she lied to cover her tracks.
and then she was silent. i busted her and she had nothing to say.

aint that like a bully? so free to throw her anger around
but when it comes back to hit her in the face she was frozen.
she looked....scared. almost pathetic.

i have struggled with the emotions of anger. almost always feeling
guilty when i have let it show or expressed it.

but not today.
in fact i felt a million times better than all the times i put up
with her poor behavior and had to pretend i was fine with it.

and as i left i knew that this would be the very last time
i would let her throw her emotional slop onto me.

i felt strong.
i felt like i could stand up for myself and not be intimidated.
i felt like a bad-ass,...but in a good bad ass way.