mess in my head

wall art, cabo ~ canon 20 d
i woke up with extreme anxiety this morning.
voices of upcoming changes and unknown outcomes.
tummy turning. head racing. hard to swallow.
at this very moment i have the abilty to make a conscious choice.
who i am going to listen to today?
the voice of fear or the voice of assurance and hope?
its really quite simple.
its all about who and what i am going
to allow to rent the space inside my head.
is going to be the jerks
or is it going to be my loves?
is it going to be the stress of bills or the gratefulness of a paycheck?
is it going to be the "this is going to suck" or the "im going to make the very best of things."
i know this sounds so baseline. cheesy postive thinking stuff. but really, i allow so much crap to fill my mind that it effects everything in my life.
im going to try really hard to keep it clean up there today.
im going to make an effort to decide who has the grip on the microphone connected to my speakers.
maybe we can all just toss out one of the ugly gremlins
who is loitering inside of us, and replace it with a prayer or
a simple hopeful thought or kind words from a friend.
we cannot control so fricken much but we can control who and what is going to be the center of our attention. right?