but i dont care.

i am proud that in the midst of a really hard year,
i have pressed on. even when i didnt feel like it.

this year has been so much more than "just a divorce"
there have been things i have experienced i never imagined
would have happened to me.

but i have worked hard, really hard, and i have felt my way through
every ounce of it. i have been stripped to the core and have to redifine
who i want to be, lose what no longer works and finally reach a level
of authenticity which i didnt know existed.

so for you, who are thickly in it,
dont give up. ask for help and know that
a better life still waits for you.

however long it takes,
you musnt give up.

and for those of you in the company of those who are in the gutter,
be patient, and know that we all have different timelines.
be fierce in your love and gentle with your judgements.

whoever you are
wherever you are
i am rooting for you.
as you have for me.

we will get there.

we can be free from the past that we once let define us.
we can recreate this life into something better.

bad days will still knock,
but they dont have to take up a permanent place in our heads.
we just have to keep on
keeping on.
in the smallest and grandest ways. . .

what else is there to do with our precious lives?