design.....
beautiful surprise, canon 20d
all of the world is designed to remind you
all of the light that you that can find you is inside
under all the noise
are you scared to be overjoyed?
in spite of daytime planners higher standards
dreams defended
there's not a single thing that's turned out quite like i intended
and so you learn that holding on is nothing less than panic
when big things fall apart and hearts get that much more gigantic
all of the world is designed to remind you
all of the light that you that can find you is inside
under all the noise
here's your chance to be overjoyed ~ christine kane, overjoyed
after a year of shitsville, i seem to have lost my expectation for
better things. like im always waiting for the axe to fall.
how are things going to ever change if i am fighting the possibility
of better days?
ive grown accustomed to the pain i think.
like the one in mourning who is afraid if she laughs
she somehow is not honoring the loss.
it is crucial for me to hold on to the hope.
it is absolutely necessary that part of me remains open
to lighter days and
to not be so hell bent on the idea of what
i think must be my life's routine, my deserving karma.
often the one thing that stands in the way for more joy in my life
is my mindset. its the fear. its the holding on to what no longer is or what no longer works. its keeping the pain close by because its all ive known
for so long, and at the very least, it is familiar.
just for today, because thats all i can manage,
i wish to remain alert for the side road.
you know the one ~
the one you didnt even know existed,
the one you stumble upon while looking for something else,
the one that unexpectedly takes you to a beautiful surprise.
