im not sure i can put this one into words,
the feeling of family...

the feeling of familiar,
of comfort,
of knowing ~ the good, the bad, and the ugly, and still standing with full love.
the fabulous feeling of a shared sense of humor and stories that only our tribe would understand.

god it made me so happy...

watching my mom laugh with her sister and brother,
recognizing similiar traits and expressions and physical resemblance.
seeing my cousin's children ~ turning into little adults.
will they love one another as much as we do now?
will they carry on our stories? will they create their own?

and as we said goodbye,
i wanted to say,

"dont go....i want to collect all the details of you
and tuck them in my heart so i will never forget."