maybe there is healing or release or wisdom or inspiration or the fire you need to make a change hidden in the nooks of it all.

who knows why certain situations happen.
i drive myself crazy trying to investigate every moment of my life ~
considering karma, sin, fate, destiny, psychological analysis,
the soul's path, etc..
always taking everything to such a serious level.
always taking things to my head. forgetting to let my spirit lead me through.

i was talking with a friend yesterday about how we
once believed that if we lived this really good life,
there would somehow be a reward for our efforts.

but the truth is,
shit still happens regardless.
the world keeps spinning whether we "do" something or not.
there is devastation and beauty happening at the
same moment in different places on this planet.
this is reality.

my job is to be in the experience fully,
not thinking it to death, or running because i am afraid, or getting lost in the
sadness....ive messed up and lost a million moments by doing this..

the best i can do
is be fully aware of what is standing right before me.
maybe discovering a piece to the puzzle. maybe finding
something that makes sense. maybe finding a second of magic.